so many things hpn today. i nv tot dat u can feel so many emotions in a dayy. just today alone i cried, laughed, scolded ppl, argue with ppl, got scolded, felt proud, felt excited, felt sucky, felt sadd, felt happy, felt irritated n frustrated, bla bla....
first we wear half u to sch. den was kinda 'excited' lahh. den we left at 10 for band. den aft dat we performed. cos we hardly play in the hall den it sounded damn funny. so we all not used to the sound. so obviously we went off pitch n keep playin wrongly. we were already v pissed at ourselves. i mean. hu so dumb dunno dat they play lyk shit rite. so we were all already v pissed. den aft the performance we had a break. n den. we were complainin bout our selves. lyk how we sounded wad went wrong. how to improve.. n try to motivate ourselves. den rite. SOME 1 [hu is damn negative n tryin to bring the entire band morale down] came over n started crappin bout how badly we sounded. n we'll nv get silver. lyk she's an expert. n if she not in band still can und. aft all alot of ppl think band cnt get silver. but she herself is in band lorr.n it got us so pissed. n i haf nv.. nv argued with my frens b4. family members i always argue with de. but i haf nv nv nv argued with my frens b4. even if im pissed i oso wun show dem or say out de. but i dunno y. today i juz couldnt take it. den i started telling her off. n den she started arguing with me n keep sayin band cnt make it. wadeva. we still haf 5 dayys to improve. n if she think 5 dayys not enough den maybe she's right. 5 is not enough but at least there's still tym to improve rite. but its lyk.. nvm. den i tot maybe im the only uptight 1 ard. but i saw jolene n she was damn pissed. ok. she didnt show it. her body lang told me. jolene seldom get angry de. n if she does she oso wun show it. but she was damn pissed. n she juz kept quiet n had this rebellious look on her face. den hui kuoon was almost crying. den i was lyk.. tryin not to cry in front of hk or she'll start cryin n she wun stop 4 another 2 hrs. den we wandered ard the sch. den later debbie ask me go celebrate peirong's surprise bday party. hmm. feel so bad. cos its lyk. we wanted to make her think we didnt care bout her den surprise her. but i was so pissed i wasnt in the mood. den its lyk. feel v bad lahh. den phyllis told me to pretend im going to scold peirong 4 playin badly in the hall since my face already look so black den v convincing. den i almost succedded but she saw the cake le. den not fun le. but anyway at least she looked happy. hmm. den later we had rehearsal. we suddenly sounded v gd lorr. totally diff frm the hall. maybe cos we're used to the band room or sth. den i was quite.. happy arhs.. yahh. n i was thinkin there's a chance 4 us to get silver. see. den later jolene oso told me she wanted to play v v v well to prove to some 1 dat she was wrong n we can do well n get silver. hmm. jolene really v determined. 1st tym. hahas. den later we went to 5C to watch our recording n see how 'badly' we played. n i expected it to b v bad. but actually it turn out quite ok.. except for 108 there n the 38 there. hmm. den i felt more motivated lorr. n i wanted to bring home my eUpH to prac those bars. but later.. aft band.. jasmine told us to fall in outside. n i noe lahh. we gettin punished. hmm. den actually not dat bad de. jas was yellin at us. n i was kinda pissed lahh. cos she lyk.. generalise. but it was still ok lorr. den suddenly joel n john argued with dem. dey were really shoutin at each other n makin sarcastic remarks n really shoutin lorr. hmm. den i saw kok wey so angry he look lyk he was going to murder some1. he argue until so.. ji dong. n his eyes were red. so were jas. n dey were damn disappointed. n i dunno y suddely i felt lyk cryin. cos dey were shoutin bout syf. den i look at the celing.. prevent tears frm droppin down. hmm. hk n jolene oso lorr. so funny. den at 1st can controll de. n it was v scary to hear yi yang kok wey n jas shoutin at john n joel. zoee was oso not happy lahh. but she nv attitude dem . she juz tok to dem. den later the claudia go say wad 'power corrupts leadership' or sth. n she was cryin. can hear in her voice lorr. den i cant take it n suddenly the floor in front of me got little puddles. hahas. i think i scared silvia. hmm. n kok wey. hahas. anyway in the end evry1's mood v sour. n all go home v pissed liddat. except me hk jolene ting yu stella janelle, were cryin. n denise kandace jasmine claudia kok wey yi yang n zhi hui were there consolling us. hmm. kok wey yi yang n jas lyk.. dunno wad to do liddat. cos they nv expect us to cry. hahas. i oso duno y i cry. hui kuoon is becos left with 5 more dayys n we still havin conflicts. maybe i cry cos we r liddat n got no motivation.. n dunno how we gettin silver lorr. but aft dat when mr ng CHASE us out of the band room cos he wanna lock up n go home.. den we all hang ard the canteen n were toking away. den i think the feelin v nice. cos we suddenly bonded liddat. den were v close. but i really dunno wads it lyk when the sec 4 graduate le. i juz cnt imagine dat. i dun think i wan dem to leave lorr. anyway some ppl, includin some teachers dun believe we can get silver. but aft today i think im juz more determined to get it.
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