blehhs. im in a bad mood. 1 hr ago i was in a v v v gd mood. this mornin i woke up n was in an extremely bad mood. wonder wads hpnin to me. hmm. im wonderin. izzit better to shut urself frm the world n lie to urself n do all sorts of ignoring n keepin urself ignorant to everyth n keeping to urself. juz to prevent ur self frm being hurt, n stay happy. or better to accept evryth the way it is n keep urself prone to all sorts of hurt. with no where to run or hide, n stay happy yet sad. doesnt sound profound. but the meaning is. anw. thailand is boring. ok. not really. it was fun. juz dat my mood didnt match. n i missed 3 episodes of wang zi bian qing wa. i cld kill myself. n btw. there's a flyin cockroach lose in the room. but im tryin to ignore it n hope it doesnt get 3 metres near me or im gonna freak. ahhhhhhhh. im in a freakin bad mood. i cnt std it. i wish there isnt such a thg as bad mood. hmmm. anw. thailand. hmm. i saw this thg. there was lyk.. 12 in a pack. n i wanted to get it. for ppl la. but there were 12. n. seriously. i had exactly 12 ppl in mind. but if i gave tt 12. den dat person wun haf. n i didnt intend on givin dat person anw. y shld i. yah. but if i didnt. den its lyk. v bad. so in the end i didnt buy at all. so. hmm. i duno. but nw im thinkin i made a mistake. yah. oh wels. i cnt undo it anw. yupps. n im still in a bad mood. i dun lyk my mood swings either. n i duno y i keep havin it. n i cnt control it. i used to b able to. now its lyk. 10 times as hard. anw. i wanted to blog cos shimin keep pesterin me to. den i ended up bloggin so much. hmm. anw. dun think so much. yahhs. its not u. its not meant to b u. no point thinkin. no point lyin to urself either. lyin will get ur hopes up. n den when u find out its nt u ur world is gonna crumble. better to face reality first. at least liddat the pain wun b dat much. yahhs. im so darn freakin emotional. i hate it. n im such a pessimist. i didnt used to b. freak. hmm. n btw. kailing. thanks. hahas. thanks alot... for being there. x)) i juz realised. u always see my chhou side... somehow. lol.