hmm. its nw.. 12.30? lol. watched tv whole day. hahas. lyk. finally. im gettin in touch with my tv le. which means. IM GONNA BANGSEH MY COM. x)) lyk. fianlly la. com is boring. esp when all u can do is blog or chat. lol. iwannawatchautumninmyheart!!!! ohwell. act. im juz here. to release tension. haha. im thinkin. say or dun say. if she's a fren. if i treat her as a fren. im sayin. but. but. lol. its reli reli hard to say. so, i decided. if she picks up the phone, its God's will i say. if she doesnt, den fine by me, we'll both suffer in silence. AHHAHA. not tt im complaining thou. cos i so rather prefer tt. lol. reminds me of tt bimbo essay eve wrote in eng. oh wells. sch's juz to take my mind off stuffs. n now. ok. today, i've been thinkin alot. as in really, alot. i rather nt go think la. but its lyk. sad. dunno y i go think. hmmm. so. yah. juz came to a sad conclusion. okayys. its nt sad. its disturbing. annoying, agitating. n I DUN LYK IT. but, face it lahhs. hw long can u run away? so yupps. im leavin thgs to luck. n god. if she picks up, tt is. lol. so anw. im lyk. procrastinating. lol. however u spell it. oh well. anw. i rcved presents in sch agn la. lol. i got a quicksilver bag. haha. anw. im lyk. got phobia of bits n pieces nw. cos i've rcved 4 presents frm tt shop. hahas. ppl gonna think im a big fan of tt shop or sth. n a op wallet. n i dunno which idiot gave me a present by dumpin it in my bag la. lyk. din give me, but dumped it in. n jolene found it n asked hu gave me this heartshaped elephant thg. n i was lyk. oh. uh. i dun rmb. i dun even rmb seeing it. n she says im ungrateful. cos i cant rmb hu gave me wad. lyk. hello. i can. mostly la. but tt THG i really really really nv see b4 until she took it out n asked me la. anw. self control. okaes. rmb. S E L F C O N T R O L. yupp. so long as i control my actions n tots i'll b fine. psycho myself. wadeva. i can do it. yupps. lol. anw. i 4gt. lol. 4gt wad i wanna say. im fidgitin. restless. kaes. i giv up. im calling. lol. wadeva la. either way, i'll feel disappointed or sad de. might as well get on with it. lol.
anw. ur pushing it. i said take it slow n aft o lvl. ur rushing it.

oook. fine. i called. lol. looks lyk its really God's will tt im supposed to shut up. haha. ok. so y do i still feel so lost? or not lost. hmm. disappointed? confused? hmm. wadeva. wenqi. sleep. 4gt abt being dep. ur slp is so much more impt. ur lyk. prac a walkin corpse now. i'll chg it. if i see her tml i'll tell her. straight. face to face. hahaha. yeah. den i can grovel right then n there. yupp. iduncare. lol.