ok. tt was intended to b in the band blog. i got no idea hw it flew frm there. to here. so now its stuck in my com. until some kind, nice, loving helpful soul copies it n paste it back where it shld belong. lol. im hinting la. hinting. haha. anw. ryt nw im beyond dep. haha. tts the only word or way ui can think of to describe hw im feelin. cos im dep. moody, blablabla. but i seriously dunno e reason. n im suspecting tt my subconscious part of me is secretly blocking the reason out. lol. dun ask me y. ask my conscience. lol. ARE U MY CONSCIENCE. quoted frm findin nemo. nvm. anw. point is. i've been und ppl n givin advices. n ok, not advices. threats. lol. but sadly, i need those threats nw. haha. can some1 lyk. pry into my head n grab some ans for me. or actually, grab questions. wad i need nw is questions. cos i've got all the ans. but no questions. n without qn, hw do u und? lol. lyk i tell u. ans is 4. but i din ask u 2+2= wad. haha. nvm. noe y i wrote tt? cos im supposed to b doing math. yupp. math. SUPPOSED to b doin. lol. there's alot of supposed-to-b-doing thgs but im nt doin them. reason is cos. im nt feelin up to it. yup. sometyms juz wish im those ppl h dun rely on feelings. haha. den at least can gt some thgs done. but now. hmm. my life's in a mess. be it hw, feelings, frens, etc etc. oh riite. n studies. see, im SUPPOSED TO B studyin. but im nt. im suppsoed to b doin my hw. esp tt math. but im nt. im so sick of evryth. chem n phy SUCKS LYK SHIT la. lyk. wth. i listened ok. its nt lyk i was dreaming away as usual. i was listening. but nth went in. ok. i admit. i was lyk. extremely sleepy. n nth cld go in. but still i was listening la. n a math. lol. tt 1. blame myself la. i wasnt listening. but its lyk. hmm. lol. wish i cld juz tell evry1 wad i wrote on my foolscap paper. haha. i'll prob shock evry1. its sadistic cum vulgar cum really un-wenqi-like. but. noe wad. iduncare. evryth's in a mess. so is my phy-chem-amath. act. i dunno y i hv to lyk.l live up to ppl's expectations. i mean. so what if its un-wenqi-like. hello. its my life la. i can do n say wadeva i wan. yah. n scare lyk. a million ppl away. ok. i get the point. still wld b nice to juz b myself. or sth. lol. its ok. i dun even noe wads myself anymore. been acting so much. at least i noe wad myself was. it was tt sick, crazy, out gg, HAPPY, insane, senile, loud, crappy, screamer. n a person hu really laughs. as in laughs. u noe. frm e heart. nw. this idiot typin is lyk. a overly dep psycho obsessed with makin herself happier but not succeeding, and havin no clues abt her life, n absolutely no clues abt y she's dep. tts e saddest part. she does nt even noe y she's dep. lol. pity her. tt dumb gal in frnt of her com. typin pathetically away. AHHAS. i cant rmb when was e last tym she laughed. those 20-min-non-stop-laughter. its gone. hahas. it left. n i din even realise it la. wish i was in sec 1 agn. hahas. i wan my laughter back. lol. n even if im branded hyena for life i dun care. i'll do anyth. anyth to gt my laughter back, haha. i miss it. reli reli miss it. n all it takes is for someone, maybe myself, to go into my brain n see wads wrong in there. i suspect its a wire connected wrongly. lol. no la. its someone hu will go in there n ask me qn. lyk wad kl did to anet. hahas. lol. grill her till she din noe wad to say. haha. anet shld hv been grateful. lol. ok. i gif up. i'll reli do my math now. im puttin evryth aside. n i'm lettin my brain control myself nw. hahas.
wadeva. i wan... myself. lol. i'm obsessed with myself. i love myself. the greatest love of my life was me. is me. n will always be me. x)) smile. haha. band rocks. band rocks.band rocks. wenqi rocks. lol.
