COMS.

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i hv no way to express myself. so all im doin is gonna flood until i feel better. too bad ppl, if ur readin.

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i dunno wad im feeling. thx alot.

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im lyk. so darn bloody moody la.

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n hu's fault isit? yes. yours.

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act. no. its nt juz u. theres u oso. n u n u n u.

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all tgt hw many? 5. yes. my maths din fail.

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i dunno hw n y so many Us can do this to me.

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all i can say. is tt i trusted u too much.

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or maybe, my expectation is too high. lol.

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but u noe wad? i doubt so. cos she said

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tts wad it shld hv been. n tt its v low alr.
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so its true aft all. haha. guess e person i hate

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most is me. cos. im nt determined enough
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to stick to my decisions. i said i'll chg.

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i said i wun b dere anymore. but i still was.
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fuck it. i totally regretted la. but i cldnt

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help it. i din noe y. n it hurt. alot.

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guess i cldnt help it cos dep ppl get to me?

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i told myself to leave u alone n let u rot.

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guess my heart din listen to my brain.

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y?? y do i love to torture myself. i dun gettit.

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so nw i feel hurt. n i can only blame myself.

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i shld juz follow jolene. stay detached. tt way, no 1 can hurt me.

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or act, not detached. juz dun bother. i mean. reli. y bother.

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nw i get wad she thinks. i finally und. haha.

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i und 1 thg n nw i dun und another. i reli dun getit.

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i wanna cry. but if i do nw my dad's gonna think i broke up with a bf agn.

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n he'll go yakking away. abt bgr n blabla. n noe wad? i dun get how some

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ppl can get so extremely lucky. shilian but can find other thgs to keep them happy.

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im nt sayin i juz broke up or anyth. im statin an eg. lyk. y ppl hv other

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thgs to cheer dem up n i hv none. seriously none. cos e 1s tt make me happy

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r the ones causing this misery. n cos they WERE e ones hu MADE me happy,
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i keep bein e nice soul tt sticks ard n help dem out of dep. but its all unneeded.

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at least. it seems unneeded. ok. it is unneeded. haha. wadeva. n sorry to phebe
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cos i broke my agreement. i wasnt determined enough. but guess wad.
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i'm gonna stick to THIS promise. ya. this promise is to myself.

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n this tym, im making myself disappear. for good. if ur regrettin it, its too late.

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but, knowin u, u prob wun. aft all, u dun even care. i shld hv followed jy's advice
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leave it, beat it, n dun give a damn. lol. wonderin y i act bothered anw. its none of my business
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hu cares if u end up rotting. or even dying. haha. i wun. not anymore.

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n i shld hv juz done wad jy told me to la. maybe cos i tot i wun b strong enough
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to get thru with it. but nw im havin 2nd tots. maybe if i had done so earlier i'll b feelin so much better.

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yup. i cant believe ive been so blind. evry1 tells me nt to depend on those u. incld my mum, sis,

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n ya. jy. i even came up with excuses for all that la. but nw, the lies hv fallen thru. i've seen e facts.
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n i dun lyk it. i dun lyk e way my pathetic self hv been coverin up. not juz lyin to evry1.

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but lyin to myself. yup. i love myself. at least. i used to. my pride was e thg i loved most.
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haha. those stupid tyms. stupid but happy. with *. lol. dun think i'll eva find any1 lyk * anymore.
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he'll mind his business n i'll mind mine. we din even gif a damn bout each other. but we knew we did.

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ironic. but i dunno hw to say la. den aft sch go j8. or walk ard tpy. n my frens will juz ignore us.
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haha. so we'll ignore dem too. lol. but tts lyk. hw many yrs ago. n im still harpin on it.

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act. no. im relievin e memory. cos u were e only 1 hu cld std me n und me. haha.

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i miss e tyms when i din need to say anyth but juz cry den u'll getit. now. i hv to lyk. explain so many stuff juz to gt ppl to und.
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i see u. ur online. haha. im so tempted to juz tell u evryth agn. or maybe u chged. maybe u dun und me anymore.

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tts sad. but life goes on. aft all. ur juz my fren nw. n surprisingly im happy with tt. x)
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at least i experienced a tym when i din nid to say anyth. think im gonna rearr the order of
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ppl hu r dep. im on top nw. haha. cos at least other ppl hv other ppl to help dem.

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i dun get y im puttin on such a happy front. i shld juz drop it. but i cant. not when im alr doin it.
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i still dun get it. care more bout other ppl ard u ok? wait. maybe u dun hv to nw. cos i wun give

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a shit anymore. haha. looks can b deceiving. but, words can be more.

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i'll juz stop here. or this pg will get damn long. n full of insults of all of those Us.
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all i can say is. this tym, wenqi, u better stick to ur decision. get jy to force u if u cant. or if u "heart soft". haha.

ok. e Us doesnt hv to refer to any1. it can mean me. yup. can. or maybe, im juz typin tt cos i dunno wad to type. all i noe is tt the phrase stuck to me. haha.

anw. band was darn fun today la. lol. maybe cos i only prac for 1 hr n spent the last few slackin. n disturbin other ppl. lol. taught jiajun e song. or act, only the 1st pg. aft tt i cldnt take e dep n decided to go high instead. x)) ohyah. n i taught him chromatics. so im nt tt bad. lol. but deb came n said she ate hashbrown den i screamed. lol. n i went in search of monica n vivian. ok, they were juz beside, n kop s few bites n drinks. haha. evry1 was screamin away la. loudest me n deb. lol. band rocks. stjohn cant compare. lol. im kiddin. stjohn rocks too k. ltr viv see le come slaughter me. haha. anw. was pretty high la. den i got sianed den went band room to see e present hk gave me. lol. this tym its another jewellry. but its perlini's silver. lucky nt bits n pieces agn la. if nt i'll go mad. haha. den read her card. she did it herself. lol. she can go b designer le. v nice. but anw. readin it brought back memories of syf. n the tyms when we juz sit at the amk bus stop tokin bout our stuff. she was 1 of those ppl hu noe alot bout me de. haha. but den we drifted. i din even noe she went hosp la. but anw, i wun gu fu her agn le. lol. nvm. den she suddenly came n we bullied lyk. prac evry1 in band. lol. clappin away, messing up timings. etc. den throwin files ard. haha. ok, only my junior's file, but nvm. den we n jolene n ty went ard askin ppl to pump us. haha. butt itchy. long tym nv pump le. den we craped la. n made a mess outta it. did some runnin n e jumpin jack de. lol. i'll nv call yen fenn a mdm agn. LOL. den. i 4gt. but anw. was fun la. too bad joan nt here. lol. so anw. aft band go j8. den 90 went to meet them for movie, WHICH I WANNA WATCH BUT CANT THX TO MY LITTLE TINY COUSIN, i went home. blogged till nw. n i'll feel better. haha. not i hope so. i'll make so. lol. as in, i'll make myself feel better la. by hook or by crook. i will. dep sucks. i'll wake up frm all these. i dun wan anyth to do with it anymore. anw. think i got a fever. my temp is 37+. lol. i feel sick. n stuffy. n i juz wanna slp. but no. my mum wans me to get chged nw. lyk. wth. oh well. anw. i realised.

LOOKS CAN B DECEIVING, BUT WORDS R MORE DEN JUZ MISLEADIN.

yup. dun trust wad evry1 says. in fact, only 50% is true.

i used to think ur probs were worse den mine. cos i cld stuff evryth behind my head n dun care. n juz put on a happy front. guess wad. im gonna b selfish. im gonna b happy. i said i'll make myself b happy. no matter wad it takes. evry1 thinks tt they hv the worse probs, every1's tt self centered. y cant i be?