argh. im so fucking frustrated. i cant fucking do maths. i cant fucking do amaths. i cant fucking do chem. and i also cant fucking do phy. and the only thing i USED to be able to do was english and humans. and now, i also cant fucking do them. like, for god's sake. my prelims chinese scored better den my english. how demoralising and degrading it is la. and, my humans have deteriorated. wow.

i din mean to do this outburst thing. but i reli cant take it la. like just now. we were at coffee bean. and every thing i took out, had at least one third of the questions i din noe how to even fucking attempt. yah. attempt. screw all those good sec schs. their papers r like killers.

and not to mention my cousin started studying in june. she din exactly score well. and she's in a SAP sch. so here i am, three weeks before o levels, and my ten yr series are ALL untouched, as in seriously new. can even smell the stale stench of popular those kind la. and the pages are pure white, unbent and straight, and im hping to do well. hah. and i haven even started studying. im just praying i wont study everyth last min cos my cousin started in june and its like. ugh.

k, whatever, i noe im like, in a v bad state now. and im "throwing my xiao jie tantrum" or whatever and being "spoilt". which, i'd like to mention, that my dad has degraded me and disallowed me from going for 1st three months. yah. he freaking doesnt allow me to go for 1st 3 mths. he wants me to work. and i mean directly aft o. see. i end on the 17th. and he wants me to work on the 18th. wad kind of sick psycho father does that to his already slave driven daughter.

and its not as if he wants me to go work in his or my mum's office, where i'm like, supposed to go there and see if there's any extra things to do. (cos theres air con and my dad said no one wld dare order me ard so all i'll b doing is sit in the company and zuo bo and sit there play com games and go online and get paid 10 bucks per hour den go home, slp.) yah. he wants me to go macs. and get totally slave driven. i mean like, go there do slave labour la. haha. sorry, thats not me.

so wad i've planned is to find some other interesting job somewhere else, and tell him im in KFC. haha. and if he wants to look for me i'll say im taking a break. smart me. anw. im not working for money la. im like, being forced to work. so i can easily land a job thats interesting but has a damn low pay. so long as i dun need to stand, carry things, wake up early, go home late, or do anyth weird. and im not spoilt. or pampered. yep. im definitly not. i mean like, look at my sister la.

anw. i just realised. im no longer as frustrated as before alr. haha. ventings work. lol. k. so now i have.. 3 wks. to complete all my tys, and all the testpapers, and all the tb memorising. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha. if i can do it, nacho cheese will drop from the sky. and every1 will be happy. um. i think only lowclass, anita, nana, jol, wongpigpig will getit. but nvm. nacho cheese will just drop frm e sky la.

anw. i suddenly cant get the "every1 calls me (wenqi). but u can call me tonight" pick up line from my head. all LC's fault. for repeating and repeating and repeating. hahaha. opps attract.