y izzit dat im alwayys liddat. even aft i tried to prevent it it din work laa. always liddat de. im sick of it lorr. hrgh. crap. i dun even noe wad im typin. hrgh?? oh. btw. im not dep. reli. im juz wonderin. n banging my head against a wall. x)) anw. last day of 2005 le. haha. surprisinly i got no feelings laa. lol. so diff frm last yr la. last yr we were cryin lorr. cryin n huggin each other. haha. still rmb. e shimin v tall. den she had to sit on the table so i can reach her. ahhas. im not implyin im short. im implyin she'll tall. anw today's kionda crazy. lots of emotions. ahhas. ahh. wun elaborate. waste of tym. lol. hmm. tellin myself jiayou for tml de performance le. noe y. cos im playin e bass clar part. the part which i only realised i had to play last prac. so in other words. i haven prac it at all. n its e part where other ppl v soft. n im e only euph playin la. deb supposed to play de. in e end nv. hmm. bangseh la. liddat if zhao sia den darn siasuay lorr. hmm. yupp. so. prayin hard. ahhas. yuen chen poured water into my mp3 de cover la. wth lorr. she's sick laa. n she called me a bimbo. toot. nvm. i'll take it as a compliment. lol. cos bimbo means.. pretty without brains or sth la. but minus the brains part den = to pretty ma. ahhahahaas. zilian a while wun die de can. lol. high le. audrey pulled out my elephant's hair lorr. den shimin twisted its nose. lyk my thgs r all gettin destroyed today. hope anet wun drop my mp3 or sth. cos liddat den today reli everyth destroyed le la. we - me n jolene - came up with a soln. tml we'll go band earlier. to prac those irritatin parts. lol. anw. my parents shld b allowin me to go to all the chalets la. but e 3grace de i dun feel lyk stayin over. but if zhihui they all stayin den i shall ASK my mum. as 4 e 2grace`o4 de. haha. can go la. but stay den see how lorr. i got a feelin if i get back report book den tell her she'll faint n say i cnt even go la. lol. dunno la. hmm. or can follow chey de advice. show her my book. oh btw. i published a book. ahhaha. kla. not i publish de. lol. but anw. its still an accomplishment. my ONLY accomplishment in PHS. n i plan to show it to my parents tgt with my results. haha. so dey will b havin internal struggle whether to b happy or sad. but the big picture is i can have a future of writin novels. hopefully dey see dat. instead of the small pic de results. lol. crap. but dat means i have to wait till mon la. long wait. lol dun care. ahha. I GOT NO PIANO ON SUN. v free. lol. jolene's havin a influence on me agn. e duncare att. aha. its good to haf it once in a while la. but hers is too much. lol. kla. i go watch tv le. lalaas. i blogged juz cos i was bored n felt lyk. or e shimin will come ask me update agn de. hahaas. n btw. i nv fengbi myself. im fine n ok. x))

hmm. kinda touched. cos u all were lyk. sayin ur v proud of me liddat. yahh. hahas. lesson learnt today in the hall: muz b grateful. yahh. so. thanks. x)) esp chey jolene anet ah ma kailing shimin.