phs symphonic band ;/*

lol. ok. im nt in a good mood. haha. i woke up at lyk. 3 today? n im still feeling v grouchy. lack of slp? doubt so. or maybe so. haha. ironic. cos i may nt b physically tired. but im mentally tired. lol. suddenly i see this image in front of me. a white world, tt allows me to slp n slp n slp. forever. where when i wake up, every1 i noe dies. n im alone. so every prob i hv disappears. aft all. hw can there still b probs when e ppl involved haf died? lol. see. tts hw dep i am. im even becomin sadistic. lol. ok. i love my sadistic self. hopefully i can scare every1 away. den no 1 will come near me anymore. lol. ok. stop. im scaring myself. haha. not worth it. lol. wenqi, its not worth it. haha. im tokin to myself!! x)) lol. nvm. anw. i missed the 5566 thg on ch 8 la. im so dep. i missed it. lyk. so sad la. arghh. nvm. im tryin to cheer myself up. to no avail. cos. in e first place, im nt even a little tiny bit excited of cny. yah. im usually lyk. happy? n i'll b so excited. but this tym im nt. lol. even in sec 3. when i was havin this little heartbreak thg. i was still excited over cny la. n this yr im lyk. so dead. lol. nvm. its cny eve. doesnt mean tml i wun b excited. yah rite. wadeva. keep hoping. lol. but i reli dunno y im nt excited. or happy. hmm. maybe cos its e same thg evry yr? juz go grandma's hse. den hv gathering with my mum's family. den nxt day is my uncle's hse. den hv another gatherin with my dad's family. lol. i dunno la. but its gettin reli boring. at least when i was younger we still go malaysia den visit my grandparents family. haha. i 4gt to mention. my grandparents r both malaysians. yupp. but ever since pri 5 we havent been gg over le. lol. so sad la. if nt last tym my passport got alot of m'sia stamps de. den now lyk. so little. anw. the korean stamp damn nice la. its pink colour de. den comin back is light blue. lol. v nice. haha. dots. nvm. oop. lol. so. yah. guess cny is boring. haha. later we havin steamboat. hmm. ohwells. im tryin to cheer myself up with band music. apparently, its helping. a little. lol. oregon. rocks. haha. so does symphony no.100. and queeen's park melody and glasnost. haha. nvm. anet gave me a suggestion. lol. watch tv. n i juz realised. i haven been watching tv the past few days, lol. NO WONDER IM DEP. i haven been watchin tv. haha. no wonder my brain's nt functioning prop. haha. i promise myself, i'll nv gu fu my tv anymore. yupp. my tv's the most impt thg in my life. n it shall cont to be. followed by music. haha. no la. think frens 1st den music. hmm. nvm. too confusing. haha. frm nw on, im thinkin simple. yupp. think simple. lol. simple. ohman. happy mallets suck. lol. its too.. irritating. lol. its a band song im listenin to nw. n it sucks. haha.