hmm. drifting in and out of emo-ness these few days.
pretty bad.
quite surprised at my results. ohwait. tts an understatement. im super effing surprised at my results. guess God's been fair. shortchanging me of sth, but surprising me with another. its not like i scored all As, but its pretty good. compared to everyth i've been hearing. maybe coming to IJ's been the right choice or sth. passed everyth.
asked keith bout tp. he said their criteria's 2H2 and 1H1. ahhaha. he most prob can promote. now im damn scared for chey. initially she confirm safe de. den now.. some sheet happened and she may not make it. ahma also. only meet 2h2 and 1h1. quite worried for them. phebe fiona is confirm can make it de la. dun wanna make it to nxt yr w either of them not being able to. what happened to the all 2g jc girls promoting and taking a lvls tgt. (substantiation: go to my archive and read the entries)
hmm. aaron said i self pity. i nv realised it. but now tt i think abt it, i think i do. devastating la. self pity. only one person used to do tt. and i used to chid, yell, scold, etc her for self pitying. i rmb saying i hate ppl who self pity. i rmb saying alot of bad thgs bout self pity. and here i am, doing it. grr. thou shalt stop all self pity.
oh. and i was just minding my own business today, when i heard stuffs agn. so its like. i dunno. i tried warning her before, abt the rumours, and who the ppl talking abt her were, and i like, risked alot to tell her, including the names of ppl and stuff, cos i was convinced she's nice and stuff. so its like. imagine u did so much just to have that person tell you in your face (not exactly in my face, but yah) that she wont believe it. or dun believe or whatever shit la. i mean. its like. i dunno. i just know its fucking insulting and i think im quite pissed. not my prob anw. thou shalt not care.
hmm. it sucks that i see you in sch. i wish u had ur wonderful camp now. i had one whole week of not seeing u one lehh. bloodyshit. end up ur leave not approved. nb. realised i nv see you i'm quite okay. until i see either you or ur siamise twin den thgs start gg downhill and fucked up. ahhhhhh!!!!. kehfnsiufhaicthfkejdx. fuck. FUCKSHEET LA. eh. thou shalt not swear.
it feels damn good thou. realised tt when i was dep i nv or hardly swore. does this mean im halfway thru putting it all behind? hha. no one will know to what extend i went to not see you appearing all around me, be it electronic or not. except aaron, i guess.
hengyeow says my entries all v sad. lol. how happy can it get. hmm. it sucks that im suffering like shit and im so dep, but when i look up i see you happily carrying on w your life, like nth has happened, and looking so carefree. it really sucks lehh.
den all the missing.. hais. quite bad la.
thou shalt not think. thou shalt not ponder. thou shalt not self pity, shou shalt not get emo. thou shalt be happy. hopefully.
